I love having Video Game Dreams.

• I have yet to have a bad Video Game Dream. I tend to have bad dreams so whenever I DON'T have one it's really nice. (I dunno what that says about me, me having bad dreams fairly often. D: But they generally do have a negative twist...)


• For some strange reason they've only ever been in a birds-eye-view perspective, like the handheld games for Pokemon or Legend of Zelda. WHICH IS COOL because, for example, if your character comes from the bottom you can see action going on at the top right away. In a dream, it just seems cool. I dunno. *dies*


• Dreams are normally pretty insane, but Video Game Dreams tend to be even more insane, but in the good way. But then when I wake up I barely remember what happened because it was so insane I'm pretty much at a loss of words to even describe it.


• Having a Video Game Dream is like having an adventure. :D! I've pretty much only played adventure-based games (DOES POKEMON COUNT? *dies*) and I'm generally attracted to stories with adventure, so clearly this is awesome. Though in the game I'm pretty aware that I'm playing a game and I'm controlling a character (although I never see the device I'm using to play the game or anything of the outside world, I can only see the game screen/world), yet sometimes I can hear the character's thoughts and sometimes speak, so then it's like "Am I the character in the actual game, or am I playing the game and just interpreting dialogue boxes as actual speech?"


• Um. Video games are cool, therefore most things involving video games are awesome.

And now I feel like the biggest nerd ever. Especially since I've only played older games so, um... the "graphics" in my dreams are rather primitive. :B ISN'T THAT SAD? MY BRAIN NEEDS AN UPGRADE. I STILL HAVE ONLY NES/SNES/GB/GBA GRAPHICS IN MY HEAD. An upgrade to a N64/PS1 would blow my mind, yo. *shot*

If you actually care about the details of the dream I had last night, it involved some world where most everything was symmetrical and I/the character felt pretty confused wandering around the whole time. I kept wandering around the same spot like I was lost. *dies* AND THERE WAS SOME GIRL BUT SHE WASN'T VERY HELPFUL, NOW WAS SHE? I think it was kinda like a Zelda game, which makes sense because I'm pretty sure the last game dreams I had were kinda like a Pokemon game. A REALLY CONFUSING POKEMON GAME, PFFFFFFFFT And no my dreams are not always either Zelda or Pokemon based okay I swear. Just... 90% of them are. >__>;

And now I'm hungry. >:

BTW, did you hear about Disney giving Mickey Mouse an upgrade? At first the news was a surprise (especially since I just assumed change = making him über gritty) but after the initial surprise I'm actually tentatively awaiting what they'll do! I'm really sad I won't be able to play the game Epic Mickey because it seems really interesting--plus our first glance at the new Mickey Mouse, though it's a "rough draft" of sorts version of him--but... oh well. :|

AND YES I KIND OF ACTUALLY LIKE MICKEY MOUSE OKAY. No where near my favourite, but I actually do like him. But I mostly just like some of the cartoons with him, and even his overly chipper / goody-two-shoes personality drives me insane sometimes. Which is why you have Donald Duck!

I generally do befriend people similar to myself. They don't necessarily have to like all the same books/shows/music I do, or even just be nerdy, they can just have a similar life experience to me too. But I rarely befriend people that are a lot different from me.

It's seriously just because I'm so shy, and anti-social in general, that it's easier to get friends that have similar interests than me or something. The few times I've had a friend who was a lot different than me was due to something really random happening. I suppose one could say some "outside force" forced us to meet, and it was from THAT that we bonded due to this unusual experience...verses people I meet and befriend due to a common interest, where in that instance someone is just like HEY! I LIKE THAT BOOK YOU'RE READING / T-SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING / SONG YOU'RE LISTENING TO / TV SHOW YOU ARE DISCUSSING!

And of course common interests and goals aren't essential to a successful relationship. Ever heard of "opposites attract"? It's really not something found solely in fiction. Having things in common might make a relationship easier to manage (because you can always fall back to those things you have in common to bond), but you don't have to work terribly hard to keep a relationship with someone different than you. I think it mostly just depends on the personalities and how they mesh more than anything else.

Then again, I've had very few friends in my life, and fewer still who've remained my friend, so I guess I'm totally talking out of my ass. OH WELL

FUN FACT: I'M PRETTY SURE THIS IS THE FIRST WRITER'S BLOCK QUESTION I HAVE EVER ANSWERED. I'm...bored, okay. And there's been cooler questions I've could have answered in the past so wtf.

Happy birthday, small_plum~ ♥♥

Man, I was really creative/inspired/quick thinking/excited yesterday and today I am... not blah in a depressed way but just MEH. But I'm not necessarily apathetic either! WOO I'M CONFUSING. But uh it's lame and I wanna be like I was yesterday </whine>

FOXES ARE ADORABLE AND THIS IS WHY



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Soooo cute! And the music is just awesome. ILU PBS. ♥

I actually wanted to write a real entry today but I can't think of anything to say sob. So I'll just go back to emoing over the fact MY STORY HAS NO PLOT AND I FAIL AS A WRITER BAAAAAH *shot* And this isn't actually for NaNo, mind. Figure I should disclaim that just in case you assumed.

YEAH, SO I TOTALLY DISAPPEARED FOR A FEW MONTHS WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING. Because I suck. Like, a lot. D:

I'm really sorry, but my life has pretty much been down the toilet lately. October was honestly better, though, but extremely busy, BUT I WAS FEELING BETTER. But then my Grandma got really ill so noooow I'm back to not feeling so great.

But October's over now (I hope everyone had a good Halloween?) and November shouldn't be so crazy, and I will try and make an effort to be active on LJ again. I'm just really really sorry I disappeared for so long and never even made a hiatus post but, quite frankly, I was so pissed off at myself for making hiatus posts all the time. Or at least it felt like I was doing it all the time. :|

I HOPE NO ONE'S THAT ANNOYED AT ME I'm really sorry. ._. I really did miss you guys, I just suck.

AND I'LL MAKE A REAL ACTUAL POST LATER I'm kind of feeling all "asdfsadgasdf!!" right now. >:

I'M SO TOTALLY INTROVERTED, YOU GUYS. Silly personality quiz where I got the INTP personality type. 0: The description here fits so well it's...weird. *dies* One of the other links is like YOU SHOULD BE AN ARCHITECT which is weird because...I've always secretly wanted to be one. I just thought I wasn't smart enough. D: But I'd design houses ALL THE TIME as a kid (or towns) and I'd play Sim City for hours while lamenting the fact I wasn't able to actually build and design all the individual buildings that would pop up in the 2000 version. That's why I always really liked The Sims games, because I can build houses!

...But yeah I don't think I'm smart enough to do anything involved with math and science. *dies* Of course, because I'd rather do a job involved with history and language (which I honestly think I'd have more fun with than if I tried to find a job in a scientific field), that TOTALLY means I'm a moron and my job sucks, right? BECAUSE ONLY PEOPLE WHO WORK IN MATHEMATICS OR SCIENTIFIC FIELDS ARE INTELLIGENT. </rant>

My mind is all over the place today. And I'm so easily distracted: I spent pretty much all of yesterday on tv-tropes oh my god whhhhhy, and before that I was reading up about Wizard of Oz (both the book series, famous live action movie, and other adaptions) for some reason, and then reading about LOTR and weird retro technology from the late 70s / early 80s.

I don't even know why I was reading about Wizard of Oz. I haven't seen the movie since I was a little kid, and I never really enjoyed it that much. My sister loved it so would constantly rewatch it, and I was really young at the time so would just watch it while never getting that into it. It was just an okay movie. I've been meaning to rewatch the movie for years but I never get around to it, mostly because I still look at it thinking, "I don't get the big deal, why does everyone love it so much?!" I know I really should give it another shot so...eventually I'll try. But not now. *dies* Still don't know why I spent half of yesterday reading about it but okay.

OH AND I FINISHED THE HOBBIT. LIKE, A WHILE AGO. I really want to try and read Fellowship again but I keep getting too distracted to do it. ;_;

A few days ago I spent basically the whole day watching documentaries. I found this nifty BBC Horizon show and I mainly watched the ones that talked about outer space topics. I really liked their "What time is it?" or whatever episode...about time. Pfffft I wonder if they have an episode about dinosaurs, I'd watch the hell out of it.

My mind is so scattered. Uuuuh. I watched Return of the King a few days ago, as in the one by Rankin/Bass that is animated. ( Your life isn't complete until you read my thoughts about this movie. )

I love reading people bitch about how horrible the various LOTR movies are. SOMEONE ACTUALLY SAID THE LIVE ACTION VERSIONS WERE SO HORRIBLE PETER JACKSON DESERVES TO BE HANGED. What the fuck. Fans can be so weird. *dies*

After reading the book and, you know, actually knowing the FULL story this time instead of half of it, I'm kind of worried about the adaption of The Hobbit in the works right now. D: On one hand, it is going to be in two parts, which is a lot of film time for a book that's only a little past three hundred pages. So I guess that means little editing will be done to the story? But still... I dunno. I hope it's good. D:

Ian McKellen will be reprising his Gandalf role though. :3 He's totally Gandalf to me. ...AND ALSO MAGNETO, WHICH IS A LITTLE AWKWARD. Gandalf > Magneto, as much as I love Mageto. WHERE'S MY DAMN MAGNETO MOVIE, FOX? 8| I bet they won't make it because everyone bitched about the Wolverine movie. ;___;

...I haven't even seen the Wolverine movie yet. I probably will eventually because it's Hugh Jackman. MAYBE I'LL JUST RENT IT.

*consults Wikipedia* Holy shit they're making a sequel to Wolverine? GIMME MY MAGNETO MOVIE FIRST YOU ASSHOLES. D8

IMDB says the Magento one will come out in 2011. >:

Pffft my dog is sleeping on her back with her legs all sticking out and it's so hilarious looking. WHY ARE YOU SO ADORABLE, KRICKET?

Okay, I'm not really sure what to talk about, I'm just...bored. I've felt pretty lethargic for the last couple of days. I think my sleep is just out of whack...or, at least, I'm hoping that's the case. Maybe I'll be able to fall asleep at a decent time tonight and see how I feel in the morning. :D;

My mom wanted me to get something to help me study languages--a program, a book, whatever--since I'm not in school and can't get a job (though apparently just recently a store opened near here and they are hiring. Mom thinks it's a party store or something. I bet they wouldn't HIRE me but I could try? *dies*). Well, anyway, I felt a little leery about the whole idea since a lot of those computer programs and stuff are for beginners and I was afraid it'd be a lot of stuff I already learned in school. On the other hand, I do kind of need a refresher, and maybe they would have some things I haven't already learned? (And maybe grammar help. I fail so bad at grammar. D: I mean, it's easy to remember vocabulary and, for Japanese, kanji and things, but when it comes to grammar it just refuses to stick in my head.)

Anyway, so I got two at the store just to appease her (and the reviews on Amazon seemed okay). Well, uh, I was just going to get one (German) but we saw them at the store, mom was like OH! and I looked them up online when I got home, and then dad took me back to the store to buy it and dad was like THEY ARE CHEAP, YOU SHOULD BUY TWO! So...yeah, I got two because he said so and he knows I like both German and Japanese. The Japanese program automatically comes with Mandarin. And, looking through the programs, they both seem pretty decent. I'm not sure how helpful they'll be with grammar (though I only looked at one section of the program) but they have some vocab I don't know, at least? And the audio is all nice, even if the videos are super cheesy and oozing with 90s fashion. (I couldn't find good audio for Chinese, though: I looked and looked, and although they had plenty of native speakers telling you how to say words or sentences, I couldn't find any videos with acting where the dialogue is spoken naturally. Bummer.)

The only problem is, with the way the programs are organized, they give you a variety of options on how to learn depending on the way you learn and what you need to learn. But then... I have no clue where to START, because there isn't anything that says START HERE. I know, a lame complaint, but. *dies* I've been pretty tired so I haven't been able to really use it, just check it out. But I hope they're useful and I actually learn something out of them and I'm not stupid. ;_; (It comes with this ... audio thing where you speak into a microphone and the program tells you how close to a native speaker you sound. I'm not really sure how accurate it really is...I tried it with Japanese because I know my German sucks, and with the low-pitched woman's voice who said the whole sentence comparing it to mine it always said mine sucked. But if I compared mine to the high-pitched woman's voice who said the words individually, the computer said 80% of the time I sounded EXCELLENT. Uh. Yeah. Though now I worry that my Japanese actually SUCKS. No one's ever said my Japanese sounded good or bad so... I can only judge by my own ears, which is a poor judge. Blah.)

The Japanese program automatically comes with Mandarin Chinese too, which I think is... uh, stupid, but okay. (You could buy Spanish, French, Italian, and German all by themselves. But the Asian languages? Let's put them in the same box. PFFFT ASIANS JUST LOOK AND SOUND THE SAME ANYWAY, AM I RIGHT?!) The only difference, as far as the amount of content the German and Japanese/Chinese one has, is the German one has four audio CDs while the Chinese only gets one audio CD and the Japanese one gets only one. Which is...dumb, but whatever. The computer programs for them have the same amount of features.

I really don't know if I should even bother with the Chinese. I considered trying it out if it would help with my kanji but both the Japaense and the Chinese write everything in English lettering. :| You only get hiragana/kanji and hanzi if you use the flashcards, I think. (I might be wrong since I didn't explore the program thoroughly, but it WASN'T in the reading or video section). That's just... stupid. I could really use more kanji practice so... meh. :| I wish there was an option that let you show the writing in kanji/hanzi OR English lettering according to which you wanted. I know the program needs it in English lettering for beginners, but WHAT IF YOU AREN'T A BEGINNER? 8|

I've had people suggest I should try learning Chinese based on my interest in Japanese ("Chinese is so much easier!" "If you learn both, it makes learning the other so much easier!") but... man, I just think it'd be too hard for me. It's the tonal stuff: not only is it really hard for me to hear the differences, but to have to pronounce it all? I don't exactly have the best speaking skills in the universe. And apparently the tones change when words are combined and...holy crap. I already want to learn Japanese AND German, I don't think it's best to tack Chinese onto that too. I also don't...get Mandarin. I like Cantonese more. But, of course, no one cares if you learn Cantonese because Mandarin's more common.

...Yeah, I dunno. Wish me luck as I poorly attempt to learn more German and Japanese. And fail horribly at doing so blaaaah I should stfu I got straight A's in both my language classes but I feel crappy anyway.

Holy crap, Canadian radio station, stop playing "Billie Jean" all the time. I'm not saying you can't play Michael Jackson music but OMG, PICK SOMETHING BESIDES "BILLIE JEAN", KTHX. HE WROTE OTHER SONGS, YOU KNOW. (Nothing against the song, but hearing it every single time I walk into the garage--because we have the radio playing in there--is kind of tiring).

Anyway, I discovered I still have Internet today so I guess I won't have any further complications. 0: It was really frustrating when I lost it because I had this killer headache and my laptop acted really weird about the whole thing. Usually when I lose Internet it doesn't act like that, so I really thought it wouldn't use wireless Internet anymore. Siiigh whatever.

Uh, I saw District 9 on Thursday because my sister watched to watch it. ( Thoughts )

( Mars Attacks! )

( Little Shop of Horrors )

Oh, so, has anyone else heard about the STRETCH ARMSTRONG MOVIE?! Oh god, I thought that was a joke, but they're seriously making a movie about it. (I still kind of hope it's a joke though, because holy shit.) I hope it's not made, oh my god. How is that going to be a good movie SERIOUSLY.

Besides, barely anyone played with that toy. They stretched it around for like ten minutes, got bored, then decided to stretch it enough to break (or they just took a knife and stabbed it) to see what was inside. And, uh, a movie about Monopoly and Candyland is annoying but...I guess I could see where they could get a plot, even if it's crappy. How the hell do you do Stretch Armstrong? I mean, you could make a superhero movie about a guy who stretches...but then why not just make a Plastic Man movie or something? Oh, right, sorry, then it wouldn't be a Hasbro movie and they couldn't make more toys, boo-hoo. It's like that "1) Make shitty movie based of "nostalgic toy" 2) Make thousands of dollars worth of merchandise for the shitty movie because EVERYONE TOTALLY WANTS A STRETCH ARMSTRONG TOY, YEAH THEY DO 3) ??? 4) PROFIT!" ...except how this movie is not supposed to bomb I dunno.

HEY, BY THE WAY, THEY'RE REMAKING THE WOLF MAN. The trailer...aaah it looks so iffy. :| I dunno. I don't want to diss the movie before seeing it, but I'm getting Van Helsing vibes from it. ):

I WANT A GOOD WEREWOLF MOVIE DAMN IT.

I still have hopes for that Nightmare on Elm Street movie though. >: Even though I haven't seen any trailers. BUT RORSCHACH PLAYS FREDDY. S-so that means it'll be good, yep. >__>;;

Mini-hiatus because the Internet refuses to work on my laptop and I seriously doubt we'll get it working on Saturday like my dad thinks. (He won't mess around with it until this weekend). I think it's my laptop's fault, not the actual Internet, and...I dunno, I was in a crappy mood anyway so now I'm just cynical. 8| Plus all of yesterday I had this awful headache and I can't take advil for fear it doesn't mix well with my medicine, bleh.

It's not like I'll have nooooothing to do with no Internet, there's plenty of books I can read! But now there's no way to talk to people. ;_; I'm horrible with phones and everyone I talk to doesn't live anywhere near me anyway, for the most part. OH WELL

Let's just hope it's an easy solution to fix because I'm all paranoid my laptop isn't working. Considering it's new and all. ;_; Though the only thing wrong with it is the Internet so I still have my music and I can watch movies. Plus if it's the INTERNET not working...we have Verizon and they are such a bitch to deal with. It's like they're trying their hardest to NOT HELP YOU. Bleh whatever.

EDIT: HAHAH OKAY a minute after I post this the Internet works on my laptop again. I STILL STAND BY MY HIATUS THOUGH because just because it works right now doesn't mean it's automatically fixed. It might keep dying again, and we might have to call Verizon anyway because my sister has complained about some issues too. It hasn't been working on my laptop since yesterday. I dunno!

I know I should be in bed by now but arrrrrgh I'm in such a foul mood.

I watched Mulan earlier to try and cheer up but seriously, nothing works. I've kind of tried everything. Oh well...always tomorrow. But I looooove Mulan. I mean, it sort of did cheer me up, even though I'm still in a crummy mood.

But one of the things I noticed besides how hot Shang is, yum~ was how colourful the movie is. I mean uh duh, Disney does pretty steller animation, and I've noticed this before, but DAMN IT, CHINA IS BEAUTIFUL. Avatar was really bright and colourful too. So WHY IS THE LIVE ACTION AVATAR MOVIE SO DULL AND asdfdasgasdfasd I hate that movie omg. D: They're making brown characters be acted by white people, the villain is BROWN (don't give me that ZUKO ISN'T A BAD GUY bullshit, he's a bad guy in the first movie and all the Fire Nation is brown), everyone's clothing is dull with its colour stolen away, they're "grounding" Sokka's character (because a real man can't joke around I guess? EVERYTHING MUST BE GRITTY AND DARK) and THEY'RE TAKING OUT THE CHINESE AND REPLACING IT WITH GIBBERISH.

FUCK THE LIVE ACTION AVATAR MOVIE. NO ONE SHOULD WATCH IT AND I HOPE IT BOMBS. I HOPE IT BOMBS SO HARD.

I love the TV series and Mulan though. ♥ I need to go find some other Asian movies to watch because now I'm in the mood for more. ): Disney movies are not that long.

BTW, I watched Princess of Thieves yesterday just because it was a Robin Hood movie. I MUST WATCH ANYTHING ROBIN HOOD, EVEN IF IT'S CRAPPY. And this movie was pretty crappy because it was about Robin Hood's daughter, played by ... Keira Knightly.

I'm sorry, but both Keira and Orlando Bloom's acting skills consist of standing there looking pretty. Orlando must wear an OH SO SERIOUS face, while Keira must look bitchy twenty-four seven. I don't mean offense when I say she looks bitchy but... man, that's just how she looks. It's not pissy, it's not angry, it's bitchy.

I think she's pretty when she doesn't have that bitchy face, even if her lips are weird. ):

But yeah uh lol she can't act. Plus she was like WOOOE WHY DOES ROBIN HOOD LEAVE ALL THE TIME TO DO ROBIN HOOD THINGS AND LEAVE ME ALONE which has just been done to death yada yada...It could have been good if they did it well, but they kiiinda didn't. >__>;; AT LEAST ROBIN HOOD WAS GOOD IN IT

He had like the best lines and the best acting. *dies* I felt sorry for him because he had to act alongside Keira, who played the cranky rebelious teenager. OH BOY, A CHARACTER WE HAVE NOT SEEN BEFORE. I BET SHE WON'T RUN AWAY AND PRETEND TO BE A BOY TO FIGHT ALONGSIDE HER FATHER--OH LOOK, SHE CUT OFF HER HAIR AND PRETENDED TO BE A BOY TO FIGHT ALONGSIDE HER FATHER.

Mulan did it better. *coughs*

NO REALLY I really love that scene in Mulan where she cuts off her hair and takes the armour and leaves because the music that plays is so awesome and fits the mood so well. 0:

Also, this is the only Disney movie whose soundtrack I LEGALLY own. :D! Oh, whatever, like Disney needs my money. It was a birthday present from a friend anyway. But okay, a lot of the music I download I REALLY SERIOUSLY INTEND TO BUY. Just not now because I can't. ): My parents don't buy CDs anymore for me and I don't have money. BUT WHEN I CAN GET CDs I TRY TO BUY THE ARTISTS I LIKE. ;_; But yeah uh screw Disney. *shot* I BUY THEIR MOVIES ANYWAY. Because I cannot resist the behind-the-scenes footage. Aaaah the bonus features for Sleeping Beauty and 101 Dalmations were so awesome. I CAN'T WAIT FOR BEATUY AND THE BEAST TO COME OUT. Gaaah not until October 2010. Assholes. ;_;

Beauty and the Beast is kind of weird becuase it's the only fairy tale / classic story Disney has raped made a movie about that I never would have heard about if it wasn't for Disney. I ALSO THINK IT'S THEIR BEST MOVIE. NO I DON'T HAVE A BIAS. Says the girl who had BatB bedding, and the tea set complete with Lumiere and talking mirror. >__>;; I wish I still had it dammit. I MIGHT HAVE SAVED THEM BUT ... PROBABLY NOT, WOE. I mean the tea set, not the bedding. *dies*

Also I want a Mulan Barbie doll super bad. I don't even like Barbie or dolls in general but Mulan's outfits are so pretty ;_; Also, the Batgirl Barbie doll is pretty. B-but now I feel silly.

I really wanted more Mulan when it ended. D: I thought about watching the sequel (I...I saw it once and forgot it shortly after) but...Disney sequels are generally crappy. The exceptions are The Rescuer's Down Under and...Lion King 2 was ooookay. (It has issues but I can still enjoy it?) I have not actually seen any other sequels besides those three...and I see at this rate I could ramble on and on about Disney movies for paragraphs and paragraphs so I'll just keep quiet now and get off. :|

I'm sorry this entry is pretty rambly and all over the place and crappy, I'm tired and in a bad mood. >:

Yaaay I found a new journal layout! Yes, I must announce every time I change a layout. But I like how it's a lighter colour without hurting my eyes. 0: The colour scheme is sort of autumny, which just makes me yearn for autumn and winter more. ;_; I really don't like summer, and since August started I've been so impatient for October, November, and December. That's my favourite time of the year. ♥ I like Halloween, I like the cozy feelings, I prefer snuggling in blankets or a nice sweater to standing beside the fan with barely anything on as I try to cool down with a popsicle. (It doesn't help that my family never does anything during the summer. No vacations, no trips to the pool or lake, no trips, nothing. I like how this September I'll get to miss out on everyone going on and on about how wonderful and amazing their summer holiday was; even if they don't think it was that amazing, it was compared to MINE. 8|

So, like, orange is a nice colour! Is it not? *flails*

Okay, I kind of hate how I started the habit of applying random song lyrics to my journal title and on the sidebar because finding any lyrics that actually fit is...annoying. Plus, I've mostly just been listening to Japanese music, and I could totally throw kanji everywhere except, like, only five people on my friend's list can read any Japanese. SO I ONLY USED JAPANESE FOR THE JOURNAL TITLES. I think the demo version to "Someday", the song from The Hunchback of Notre Dame, is one of my favourite songs. I love how simple it sounds, I love Heidi's voice, and I love how full of hope the lyrics are. The various pop versions are okay, but none of them could ever compare to the demo version. Especially since the beginning lyrics are different, since originally it was going to be used in place of "God Help the Outcasts", so the beginning to the "Someday" demo song is reminiscent of it. Or should I say, the begining of "God Help the Outcasts" is reminiscent to "Someday", since "Someday" was written first. :B

YES I HAVE JUST RAMBLED ON ABOUT MY LAYOUT FOR BASICALLY TWO PARAGRAPHS.

I can't actually think of anything else to say, except I started watching Leverage again. The season started up again a month ago but I didn't watch it since July was pretty busy. (That's why I still don't have my driver's license, because everything got so busy. We won't have the time to get me in to try the test again until sometime in September.) But I LOVE THE SHOW SO MUCH and all of you should watch it, seriously. I love Parker, she's so adoooorable. And Sophie kicks ass and and I like that hacker dude I never remember the name of. 0: I HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME WITH HIS NAME ARGH. I know Nathan, Sophie, and Parker; I always have to think about it, but usually I remember Elliot's name. BUT NOT THE COOL HACKER GUY. I SUCK. But he and Parker are my favourites, and I can't decide which of them I like more because they're so different. The hacker dude just... kicks ass, and Parker's wacky and crazy like a dark-minded Luna Lovegood.

And ah geez I got into a Harry Potter mood today. I always find it annoying because I used to be sooo involved in the fandom when I was younger. I knew where all the good fanfiction was (and the pit wasn't so much of a pit back then, so fanfiction.net had a surprising amount of good ones) and where all the good fanart was. I knew plenty of places and people to ramble on about the series with, and there was so much to discuss because the fifth book wasn't even out yet. And now...it's been so long, now 90% of fan-made goods are shit in the Harry Potter fandom since it's so old, and the fandom is so wanky, and there isn't much to discuss and theorize about because the series is over. Sometimes there's interesting discussion here and there (mostly on the what if's and could have been's), but I don't find it as often as I'd like.

WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS WHENEVER I GET INTO A HARRY POTTER MOOD I JUST FIND IT ANNOYING. It takes too much time to reread the series, and I have way too much to read right now anyway. I could watch the movies again (I kind of really want to now, gaah *dies*) but after that? What's there to do? I never get any fanfiction ideas and don't know where to find the good stuff anymore. ): I AM DISGRUNTLED.

Oh whatever I bet it won't last very long. Unlike my Sailor Moon and the crazy Lord of the Rings mood I've had for OVER A MONTH.

I thought about getting a new layout but I couldn't find one. However, I did change my profile thing? Yeah. Uh.

SO HI I'M BACK NOW

I still feel kind of terrible for not reading anyone's journal for, like, nearly two months? And of course it's a little ridiculous to try and go back to read all those entries I missed...I know a lot of you will just say "Don't worry about it!" but I'm sure I missed something really important from not reading some of your entries! I don't know.

Anyway, what's new with me? Nothing much, really. Actually, for the last few days I've been in a pretty crappy mood. Part of me wants to feel depressed and cry but instead I'm just being cranky and snapping and acting like a "bitch" I guess. I hate feeling that way. But other then the past few days, I've actually been in a good mood!

You know me, nothing really happens in my life. Except for this whole sick thing: basically, I felt like I had allergies in June, which was weird and pretty annoying because I never had allergies before. But I just went with it because... well, they are just allergies. They kind of went away in July--still there, but turning mild, or I just got used to them--then in August it just took a really bad turn. I couldn't sleep and my nose turned bloody, and my mom figured it was going on too long for it to be allergies. I also felt way too much pressure in my head and got confused and forgetful often. It was pretty awful. AND IT TURNS OUT... I totally did have allergies the whole time, and then I got a sinus infection. So yaaay antibiotics + allergy medicine. Although the doctor said this season was a really bad one for allergies so I might just have them for this year.

And I keep feeling like my writing is really, really crappy...I don't know if that's just this...infection thing messing with my head, or maybe my writing really is shitty, but I'm sorry either way. ):

Oh, uh... my grandfather kind of died in July, but I didn't really know him, so... I mostly just felt bad for my dad, but since I only met my grandfather once (ignoring when I was a baby) I wasn't exactly sad. I dunno...

Oh, and I got STAR TREK PEZ DISPENSERS. I was going to take a picture of them and show them off but I never found the camera so...whatever. And no one really cares anyway, I just think they're cool. 0: They're really well made and stuff--limited edition and all that stuff. It's of the original cast (not the movie versions). I WOULD HONESTLY RATHER HAVE STAR WARS PEZ. These were only ten bucks, though. The Enterprise Pez is really cute for some strange reason. Also, Spock always stares at me. :x HE JUDGES ME.

Eeeh I still feel kind of out of it and in a badish mood... Lately I've really been into FIELD OF VIEW, WANDS, and ZARD (they are Japanese bands if you did not know) but I don't really talk to anyone who likes them aaaah. I'm amused that all their names are written in ALL CAPS too. And I actually liked and listened to ZARD before, but I recently got into FIELD OF VIEW and WANDS and it turned out ZARD wrote quite a few songs for them so I was like "Ooooh :D" and got into her again.

And yesterday I randomly (very very randomly--I seriously can't remember why I even did it) watched/listened to the theme songs for Rurouni Kenshin off YouTube. It's one of the first anime shows I saw, but I never actually watched it. See, uh, my sister would watch Toonami off the TV in my parents room, and back then the computer we shared was in that room, so I'd be on the computer while she watched the TV. But she wouldn't let me watch the TV (I couldn't even sit at the computer and watch the TV ;_;) so ALL OF THOSE TOONAMI SHOWS? I ONLY GOT TO KIND OF LISTEN TO OR SEE GLIMSPES OF. Otherwisemysisterwouldbeatmeupandstuff So basically Kenshin always looked interesting and I liked the theme song Toonami played at the end (thirty seconds of "HEART OF SWORD~YamiblahblahtoolazytoreadinJapanesetoday~"). And sometimes I'll be like "Oh yeeeah, Kenshin!" and read up a bit of it off Wikipedia and contemplate watching it or reading the manga. I never actually do, though since yesterday I've been contemplating it again. I never hear anyone say "OMG KENSHIN IS THE BEST SHOW EVER" but it still looks interesting, you know? At least for the period it takes place in, and I believe it's pretty accurate? I never actually watched the show so I can only go by Wikipedia or something, but I think I read it was really accurate? Oh, whatever. *dies*

YEAH, ANYWAY. I watched a lot of movies since I last wrote any kind of real entry, so I'm going to briefly ramble on about the movies I saw. I don't know if I'll get every movie, but whatever, here I go...

( You know how I said briefly? Yeah. Uh. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA )

So um anyway that's all the movies I watched that I feel like talking about and HAAA THIS ENTRY IS RIDICULOUSLY LONG. AND NO, I DID NOT SPEND LIKE FIVE HOURS WORKING ON IT, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!

I KNOW I SAID I'D BE BACK ON LJ BY AUGUST, AND I'M SORRY I'M NOT. I just really don't feel well. My head feels too clogged up to write entries or read through LJ posts. But as soon as I feel better I'll try to come back, I swear. ;_; I MISS YOU GUYS

Mom might take me to the clinic uuuuh by Wednesday? SO WE COULD SEE IF I'VE REALLY HAD ALLERGIES THIS WHOLE TIME OR SOME WEIRD SINUS THING. 0: Then I can breathe through my nose again and think clearly, yay! And maybe get some writing done?!

I totally need to go through my icons, though. And figure out wtf kind of changes have gone on LJ for two months.

Meh. I'm just posting to say that YEAH I KNOW I'VE BEEN QUIET. And I've just been really anti-social and not even reading LJ. So I guess I'll just announce a ~*~hiatus~*~ and maybe I'll be more active in August. I don't know.

I'M NOT LEAVING LJ I'm just busy and haven't been reading LJ lately. Feel free to comment/poke me whenever you want or need to, whatever. I will try and be back "soon", though. If I'm not reading LJ by August I'll force myself to.

Uuuuhm. There's nothing really new with me so I'll just end it. Yeah. HIATUS. :D;

OMFG BILLY MAYS DIED

I COMMAND YOU TO ALL STOP DYING, CELEBRITY PEOPLE ;_;

I was looking through my French dictionary for a friend, when I just realized I used to own a completely different dictionary. And it had this huge section in the middle with all these phrases and charts for numbers and important things like currency... and it even had lessons and games to help you study more! Not that the one I have now sucks or anything, the older one just seemed to be a lot cooler...

But I gave it to a friend of mine before I moved, because we signed up to study French together in high school back when I thought French was cool, but then I ended up moving, and I felt bad because she wanted to take a different language course and only signed up for French because of me. So I gave her my dictionary because it was awesome and I wouldn't be needed it at my new school, which didn't have French.

BUT WHY WAS I CRAZY AND BOUGHT A NEW DICTIONARY??? Oookay, until tenth grade I still kind of wanted to take French. Then I saw the light and realized romance languages suck ass*, and since then my French dictionary has been pretty useless, except for the few times a friend pokes me for something French or "foreign sounding".

I just... find it funny. Because I've owned two French dictionaries but now I don't even like the language. *dies* I'll still keep it around though, because you never know. Especially if I ever move to Canada.

Oh and, uh. I haven't gotten any sleep lately and it's ridiculously lame. :| Stop hating me, boooody.

* Pffft it's totally cool if any of you like Spanish or French or Italian or Portuguese and all. I'm just joking~ I ... really don't like French or Spanish much, though. (Don't know enough about Italian or Portuguese, although I think Portuguese is pretty.) I look at them, and realize there's no way my tongue could wrap around all their words, and their verbs and other things are just INSANE. So I'll stay in my corner with my German and Japanese while you all can go frolic in the land of the Romance Languages, 'kay? ♥

Michael Jackson died? ;___;

I know everyone jokes about him now and stuff, but he was still a BAMF at a time. And that article says he was going to start a comeback tour in July. Just, daaaamn.

Pffft I was going to post "Thriller" in honour but it won't let me post it on my journal so you'll just have to click this link to watch it. And watch it you should, because "Thriller" ROCKS.

I've been in the mood for a good zombie flick and this is totally not helping. I should, like, go download Night of the Living Dead because it's in public domain, lol copyright. (That's the one with the black dude as the main character, right? >__>;)

Oh and, uh, my sister drove the car into the ditch the other night but I felt really freaked out about it because I had no clue what happened to her: she called mom and mom was all asdfag!! and it sounded like she got in a wreck and needed a tow truck. And my parents said she was fine before they left to go get her (I stayed home to watch the dog) but "fine" doesn't necessarily mean "She's not bleeding to death from a cut on her head" or something, you know? It was just pretty scary. The Futurama episode about the seven-leaf clover being on that night totally did not help at all whatsoever no I didn't cry while watching that with my dog, nope.

But then she comes home--fine, and so's the car--and tells me she had stopped at the store to buy something for her and mom but not for me. (I swear, pretty much every time she comes home from work and stopped at the store on the way home, she goes up to me and brags about how she got stuff for herself but not for me. Just. WHO DOES THAT????? Besides my sister obviously) And just... generally acts like an ass as usual, like not helping me upload groceries like she was supposed to do. I feel really selfish about it, but I was so worried sick about her and then she comes home and acts all self centered as usual, and it just really pissed me off. Just. asdfasgb She just acts like nothing happened. ._.

Oh and my permit expired. So. 8|;;; That's another Saturday we (read: me and my dad) get to waste getting it renewed, then we have to wait another week to get another appointment, assuming we can get in. Just, damn, I try so hard to not annoy people or get in their way or be a problem but it's like because I'm trying so hard I keep fucking up.

But I'm just going to completely STFU about the driving crap because I don't even really like talking about it and I'm sure you're all just annoyed about it anyway, so I won't say anything more on the subject until I actually get my license. Like, five years from now, since I fail so much.

Uh. But all the characters in my silly chess story thing have names now? :D; Well, considering there's five characters, ignoring their family members, so far. *dies* I searched the net for over five days trying to find names, which is really ridiculous. Although I'm honestly still tettering between Katsuo or Kazuo for the main character.

Hey*, GUESS WHO FAILED THE DRIVING TEST AGAIN??

Oh man, I really don't care. Like, the last time I failed I was balling my eyes out for like five hours, but that was because I was really depressed and felt like that before the test. Quite frankly, I'd probably spend two Saturday's ago crying anyway, just not that much and over the driving test. This time? I'm mostly just pissed off because I HATE TAKING THE DRIVING TEST IN THAT TOWN.

Like, seriously. That parking lot has a poorly planned layout, the people around the town all have too huge of cars and can't drive so I always have to make double-sure they're turning or not because they've never heard of a blinker, I guess. Too many stupid lanes, the huge stop light is annoying... I knew taking the test in that town was gonna be bitchy, but now I'm just frustrated by how retarded it all is. :|;;

Oh and I think my mom's all pissed at me yaaaay sorry I faaaail moooom. </ lack of sympathy> I bet I'm pretty annoying to my parents right now because I failed again but... I don't know, what's the point of being pissed off at me? Especially since my mom hates that town anyway because people can't drive properly in it. I mean, I figured she'd be understanding, given how it's hard to drive around the area and she knows I tend to be emotional and a nervous wreck, but I guess not.

Whatever. I'm totally gonna pass... er, I'd say next week, but my dad might make it two weeks again, I dunno. o.o; WHO CARES, I GOT MY CREATIVITY BACK TODAY. ♥ Just aaaah I felt so drrrry creativity wise and it was bugging the hell out of me. But today I got tons of inspiration! SO FUCK DRIVING, I'M GONNA GO PLAN MY NOVEL SOME MORE. ♥

Yeah, I'll make a "real" post later, just figured I would infoooorm. I'll have to head back out in about an hour anyway. But dude, really, I'm not upset so don't be all OMG I'M SORRY at me because I'm fiiiiine. Reeeeeally. Do I need to stretch out woooords sooooome mooooore to get my point acroooooss? *shot*

*Do I really have to clarify who I aaaam? Who else on your f-list provides updates on how much they fail at driving?

Oh god, I feel so bad for what's going in in Iran right now. I had no clue that was happening until yesterday. I don't watch the news, I haven't watched The Daily Show lately, I don't use Twitter or Facebook, and I only heard about it from a friend. I know I'm horribly sheltered and live in a stupid bubble, but I wish there was something I could do to help. I'd donate money if I knew of where to donate to...if it'd even help at all. All I can think of is helping to spread the word more... just, what more can I do? I just feel awful. The people of Iran are living one of my nightmares right now, and I really, really hope the violence stops soon. I'm not religious, but I hope if there is a God he or she is hearing everyone's prayers and/or well-wishes and things improve.

I thought about just copy/pasting the post one_hoopy_frood posted here but... I don't know, I figured a lot of people have already seen it and it just seems like I'm copy/pasting it because I ~*~should~*~, not because I want to and actually care deeply about the situation. So, there's a link if you want to read it (with some more useful links), but I'm not hogging your f-list and forcing you to see it. I just really hope things improve over there soon. So much violence and death already, we don't need anymore.

OH YEAH, AND I AM STILL SUEKO_LAWLIET31 pffft I dunno, I think after the next post I won't remind you anymore. :D; I just don't want you freaking out thinking there's some creepier on your f-list, sorry. I'm glad to be rid of that silly, "childish" username, though!

"FIRE" by BLAZE is my new favourite song right now because it's insanely catchy and oh my, the Engrish. ♥ Oh, it's not so bad: the singer is guilty of RONERY and ARONG and DO YOU WANNA HAVE GOOD TIME is kind of... wrong, but the pronunciation is pretty good. Hmm, the insane catchiness of it and the Engrish just make it a really fun song. :3 AND YES IT'S A YU-GI-OH! SONG DO NOT JUDGE ME >__>;

( Here, have a cut, where I ramble about everything because that is how I roll. )

I'm actually a tiny bit behind on my f-list and need to reply to some comments first so... maybe I should stfu and do that. :D;

Ooh oh! But I found out that Viz actually translated that cracktastic Four Swords + manga! But it doesn't come out until August! D: Curse you Amazon for teasing me. *shakes fist* Volume two comes out in October too, woe.

And I weirded out my sister the other day because I can read Russian. Except five letters. She wanted to use my dictionary and I said she could but she would have to ask me to read the Russian words out loud because they're written in Cyrillic, and she freaked out. Yes, you have an extremely nerdy younger sister, deal. More like a little sister who has no life, but.

sueko_lawliet31 → sukuhov

Yeah, I got a rename token. :D;; (Don't think from my last post this means I'm going on some shopping spree. I'm really not. I've wanted a rename token for a while now. *dies*)

I guess for a few entries I'll put up a reminder so you know who I am. I don't know how much, er, reminding you'll need? :x

Feel free to comment if you think my new name is retarded and you want to throw tomatoes or something. (I'm hungry; yum, tomatoes! ♥)